Here's a little bit of honestly for you: I've been challenged lately. Challenged in my own thoughts and views and questions and doubts. And I've been extremely quick to grow frustrated within the midst. I wonder if God gets as frustrated as I do. Or maybe He's more patient than me.

I've had thoughts lately, wondering if maybe I made a mistake. Maybe it's crazy what I'm doing. Why am I living in Australia again? Why didn't I go to college? Except at different moments the last number of weeks, instead of those thoughts coming in question form they often came in statement form: I should have went to college, I shouldn't be in Australia.

Tonight as I'm laying in bed, I was challenged with the question: Why am I doing what I'm doing? But not a question in a interrogating way or a condescending tone, but instead, a simple reminder.

Which led me into a reflective mode. Guys, I am so grateful. It has been about the people for me, the stories, the lives altered because of Jesus. I'm doing what I'm doing because for now I believe this is where God has led me, what I have faith for right now and that He's not finished with me in Australia yet. I'm doing what I'm doing because I believe Jesus changes lives and wants to grow and mold and use me.

I think of the countless number of young adults we have join us for our training schools who end up meeting with God in unique and real terms that their life changes to pursue the Father's heartbeat and live a little diferently. I think of the families in Papua New Guinea whose life got a whole lot easier because they received a needed pair of eyeglasses, got a tooth pulled that had been causing them pain for months, or had a cataract removed. I think of the ones who tasted hope, because someone went, spoke, prayed, laughed, gave.

                                                                     

And I think what gets me most is the ripple effect- I pray for lasting fruit, for growing fruit and for fruit that multiples. Cause life was never meant to be about us.

I read an awesome quote today, " Thinking of life as a journey reminds me to stop trying to set up camp and call it home."

Father, I want to folow your lead....